I have retired the shirt, its going into a box with her favorite toys, and her blanket.
I think in the next few weeks I will go get my very first tattoo. I thought when I was younger I would get a bunch of them, but as I got older, I could never decide on something I could live with for the rest of my life.
I am so glad I scrapped the idea many times, the thought of some of the designs I was "serious" about, make my stomach turn.
I do have one design that is simple, and I know I could live with forever. I want to get her paw print on me somewhere. I have the impression of her paw that was made before she was cremated, and will use that to have an exact copy made. Don't know where I will get it, either over my heart, on arm or on back shoulder.
I haven't decided if I will get her name or any words done. Just the paw print is a good starting point.
I thought about "Shine on you crazy diamond" around the paw, but not sure about that. The song makes me think of her, but with enough time I could think of a hundred lyrical lines that make me think of her.
I like the t-shirt. I believe you will wear it again some day. Good idea about the tattoo!!
ReplyDeleteI like the shirt too...Without those things on the shirt, life doesn't feel good. And its not even material things. Its the love of a dog. Fuck music or baseball, I just want my dog.
ReplyDeleteI can say with all confidence that the shirt is in fact retired. I will never put it back on. Its sitting on top of her box of stuff, waiting to get put in. That piece of me goes with her.
I think that shirt was as much 'hers' as yours. So it's only right it gets safely put away in her memory box.
ReplyDeleteI think the tatt idea is great. That is something meaningful you want on your body for life. I also think its a step forward in the healing process. This way you'll carry her close to your heart (as well as in your heart) always.
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