Saturday, March 24, 2012

Death Row

I am in prison and on death row.
I am deteriorating in my cell.
Despite time in the exercise yard, I am getting weaker by the day.
I fuck my cellmate who I loathe.
I dream of an escape but I am too weak.
The judge that put me here can go fuck himself.

WAKE UP YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!

23 comments:

  1. My dear friend. I am so sorry. Life is so unfair!!!! I will write more later.
    Lots of lots of love
    K

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  2. Maybe you are too weak for an escape right now, but I am sure it will change. You have the will and strength to do something about it. I am quite sure. Even if it doesn`t happen right now.
    I wish you would talk to your sister about some of the things you feel. At least some of it. Or your dad. Or someone else. And if you do you should be proud to talk about it. People need to know. They should know. And I want to thank you because I wouldn`t know so much about ms if you hadn`t written so openly about it.
    I am so sorry for the way you feel. And for the way you feel about yourself. You are a good person, and that hasn`t changed just because of your ms or depression or anything like that. You are a good person. I like you very much!!
    K

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  3. Can you please, please seek hjelp. You MUST. Do something! I must stay away from the Internett for a while, but Will come back. Lost of love K

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  4. .....But if you don`t do anything, don`t blame yourself! Don`t blame yourself for anything of this! Treat yourself as good as you can. Because you can!
    K

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  5. Right there with you.
    It'll get better. Don't know when...for either of us. My life is full of ridiculous tragedy as you know...I just keep my head up.
    Get a new cell mate for fucks sake...

    Email me if you wanna bullshit.
    TAKE CARE of yourself!
    Kelly

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    1. I will be in touch. Thanks Kelly and take care.

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  6. Love!!
    (Who is that man at the bottom of your page)
    K

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    1. The guy in the picture is Bubbles. He is a character from a Canadian TV show that I enjoy.
      While he may look 'special' he has more sense than anyone on the show.

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=41ZEanjORQI

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  7. Thanks for the comments. I will post an update soon.
    I have been in a hole trying to get my shit together.

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  8. I would never forget you!
    K

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  9. My friend!
    Do you eat enough vitamine D? You probable need a lot more than you think. Everyone do.

    Have you tested yourself for hypothyreodism? It is not uncommon for people with MS. Take a bloodtest (T3, T4, THS etc) and don`t trust the doctor when he/she says the tests are all right. Ask for a printout. And if you don`t find any problems with the tests after asking someone (on the internett) who knows a bit more than your doctor, be sure to measure your body temerature in the morning. It should not be below 37C.

    Just a suggestion......It seems like many of your symptoms are similar to hypotyreodism (depression, not feeling anything, "whatever"-mode etc).

    K

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  10. Hey Hey....

    Hope you're doing better...

    Kelly.

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  11. Just dropping by with a hi as I was thinking about you and wondering how you are.

    Jax xx

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  12. Can I ask you just one question. IS it normal for people with MS to feel a lot of itching?
    K

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    1. Hopefully he'll update us all soon...but until then I feel inclined to answer my take on itching. I Itch all the time. Usually not surface itching though. It seems more like internal, almost like my muscles itch on the inside and I just can't satisfy the itch in a way. My thighs, ankles, and neck/upper back area are my worst spots!!
      -Kelly

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    2. more like burning skin sensation to me

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    3. I deal with daily itching.
      It doesn't help with it being spring and all the bugs are out and curious. Cannot go outside with a f'ing bee, spider, or something messing with you..

      Just recently starting feeling the burn. Comes and goes and times now. Not sure if I am just now paying attention to it.

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  13. Thanks for your answer Kelly!:) Hope your itching will be better.
    Yes, I hope he will write something soon!
    K

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  14. Yo. Are you ok?????????? Any sign of life would be great at this point.

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  15. Posted an update. Sorry for not responding sooner. Thank you for the comments..

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